I am so thankful for this day, it has been truly Magical. I had an opportunity to present Queen Elizabeth, House of Fitzpatrick with the portrait to Honour Her character in My Story, along with another special gift which I cannot disclose at this time. The Universe determined Queen Nina, House of Garacci would be unable to attend today and it would be unfair for Me to spoil Her surprise. I can say that I am very grateful to have had the opportunity to meet with Elizabeth and I felt She was genuinely Honoured by the gifts I presented Her with – and that was a great Honour for Me.
I think it’s probably fair to say that there is an underlying fear within every artist that the subject Will not appreciate the Work. I identified this fear within My Self as I wondered how best to present the paintings and set things up for My little ritual ceremony – I even laughed at My Self a couple of times because I knew how ridiculous I must look, fussing over silly details. It was in one of those moments I realized how important it is for Me to continue with this campaign – I found something that scares Me a little.
One of the reasons I don’t like doing commissions is because I’m afraid the person as King to Me that I do it Will be disappointed with the completed Work. Painting a portrait to ‘Honour’ someone is even more terrifying because I genuinely want the subject to feel Honoured by it. Maybe that’s what drove VanGogh to cut off his ear! (Kidding, I’m not masochistic). I honestly can’t think of anything that would present more opportunity to expose My insecurities than the path I’m am choosing to take. Okay, maybe I am a little masochistic after all… For some reason, this seemed noteworthy because I do tell people to run at everything that scares You, I was a little surprised to discover I was doing that My Self!
I also had a brief opportunity to speak with Elizabeth today and another interesting thing happened – She as King to Me if I’m okay. A simple enough question but it hit Me in a strange Way. Probably because no one ever asks Me that. Including Me. So I was somewhat caught off guard and didn’t really know what to say. I guess I forget sometimes how difficult My life is perceived to be – and it is, I suppose. But the only thing really lacking in My life is comfort, and I’ve learned from experience that I don’t feel any more comfortable in a cozy apartment with a full time job paying taxes to a government that allows for these conditions to exist, I’m just more comfortable being uncomfortable. Being uncomfortable motivates Me.
When I was working at a regular job and paying taxes like everyone else, I always used to wonder what I could do to make a difference. I spent a lot of time thing King about it, learning why things are the way they are and what I might do to one day make a difference – a real difference. Now I know what needs to be done – to not do it, would be to dishonour My Self.
So, for those who might not understand why I am choosing to do things this Way, I don’t Mind working My Way up. I am one of those people who truly believes We can achieve anything We put Our Mind to – starting at the bottom Will give Me a greater appreciation of the view from the top. Nothing Will stop Me from getting there.
Every day for Me becomes an expression of gratitude and today has been no exception. Not only were My insecurities compromised but Queen Elizabeth also presented Me with a surprise preview of the InFocus Photo journal which looks absolutely stunning!!! I can’t remember how long She said it would be before I could get My hands on a copy but I am looking forward to it.
I also realized that although a part of Me is terrified to present My portraits to the characters in My Story, I also get a tremendous rush from it. And I guess that is the moral of My post for today. Nothing brings Me greater joy than Honouring others – and I think that is probably true for everyone. To Honour thy neighbour is to Honour thy Self.
So, I feel a little more confident after My visit with Queen Elizabeth, House of Fitzpatrick, though I am quite sure I Will go through the whole insecurity thing all over again when I meet with Queen Nina… But that doesn’t keep Me from being super excited about it!!!
I hope You’ve all had as fabulous a Friday as I have,
Love and Blessings,