Most people probably wouldn’t consider the letter I am about to share with You ‘wise’ professional advice, but it’s truthful. For Me, truth and wisdom are interchangeable.
The following is a letter I wrote to My employer:
Good Morning …..,
It’s 1:22 a.m. and I am trying to will Myself to bed. I have never taken a sick day at any job I’ve ever had, I really just don’t get sick. But when I think about getting up for work tomorrow, I do feel physically sick to My stomach.
I don’t know what happened today. I do know that about a month ago one of our painters stopped showing up for work and I was asked to step in and help out. When the painter returned, I stepped aside and returned to mounting. I was once again asked to step in and paint when it was learned that the painter had been stealing from the company. I worked diligently and with determination to demonstrate that I am both capable and enthusiastic for the position. I received praise from all of My peers for My efforts and was this very morning greeted with enthusiastic smiles about how pleased ….. was with My work, save for a few minor details, new goals I had aspired to attain. Then, an hour later I was once again asked to step aside when the painter returned.
Perhaps I am not to know that …. stole from the company, but I do. I know how hard I have worked to attain this position and the work ethic I have demonstrated. I do My best to maintain a positive attitude and to encourage it in others. I have been trustworthy and reliable, I have worked overtime when asked.
I also understand compassion. I understand …. is a long term employee and that there is a history I may not be able to fully comprehend. I understand he has had some very difficult situations in his personal life to overcome and I am sympathetic to these things as well. In fact, I find the company’s compassion for …. remarkable. But I also think there is a compromise.
If …. is returning to work, there is no reason he can’t fill the mounting position that will be available if I am permitted to take over his position. This still demonstrates tremendous compassion on the part of the company, while being fair to the parties involved. It suggests to other employees that reliability, hard work and determination will be rewarded while giving ….. an opportunity to demonstrate how determined he is to regain the respect of his employers.
I do have a tremendous amount of respect for You and I hope that this letter in no way reflects badly on You. You can share this letter with …. if You like, or You can tell him whatever You feel is appropriate. I think You were as blindsided by this as I was. But at the end of the day, I need to respect Myself and I can’t come to work for another day holding My head high, pretending I am okay with what happened, having no answers for anyone else who asks why I am not painting.
If I still have a job after writing this letter, I will return to work Thursday as usual but I am hoping for some kind of explanation or at least the permission to take My concerns to …. Myself if You don’t feel there is anything You can do. Thanks,
Sincerely and respectfully,
The irony perhaps is that I was somewhat indifferent to what had happened and I am not going to discuss any further details than what were outlined in the letter itself. This is out of respect for the company and the people concerned. This was more of an attempt at a resolution and explanation for My colleagues at work who felt as if I had been mistreated in some way and that I was not asserting Myself or complaining about the incident.
The resolution I offered was not entertained, but the letter did accomplish its objective. Foremost, My enthusiasm for the position was clarified if the opportunity presented itself, and it did so just yesterday when a snow storm kept the painter at home. The management considered My letter and provided some clarification of the situation for My colleagues. I rewarded Myself with a day off and although none of My colleagues read the content of the letter, they were told of it and I was actually thanked by a couple of people for writing it. Later that day, I sat down with the president who graciously thanked Me for My efforts at work and commended Me for writing the letter. He even asked if I’d mind if he kept a copy.
However, the outcome of the letter is not really important. What is important, is that I did not care what the outcome of the letter would be. So many people are afraid to express themselves, to declare their value, even if only to themselves. I don’t really care about the job, My genius is the creative expression of My intention by whatever medium the universe provides.